Alone

3.10 Miles

I believe every human born has a distinct gift to the world. Unfortunately I believe mistakes or divine plan stalls and sometimes cuts short many of our talents. I also believe outside of calculated mentoring and group affiliation these special traits can only be found once we dig deep enough within ourselves, alone.

I believe the Universe begins to cater to those of us who go on and through personal journeys of struggle in order to attain a higher understand of our purpose. I believe the more we run toward the direction of our inherent gifts the faster they present themselves in our life. Most of my realization about this concept has come to me while I was alone fighting personal battles that no one could possibly help me with.

I was once told that character is doing the right thing when no one is looking. I believe the flipside to that coin is that our purpose is found when we dedicate ourselves to fights that will never meet the public's eye.

Breath seeped into my lungs this morning, so I did some "mining" so to say, on myself. That's my debt for seeing another day.

I pray my theory is correct, and I have the strength to go at my imperfections "Alone"  as I pray you do as well.

#RUN4Freedom

Second Wind

3.07 Miles

It may not come, our second wind I mean. When I ran this morning, at about the second mile, I deluded myself thinking that a second burst of energy and determination would come showering over me. It didn't. And the anticipation of it made the last mile I believe, much more painful than it should have been.

So during my self-talk/nervous breakdown/mind-collapse, I realized that there is a point in achieving something where even the idea of a second gust of power may never arrive. While coming to this conclusion I also discovered that within the drive it takes to keep pushing without that extra compliment of gas, we may find a quality that is usually hidden without pushing limits. Passion.

 I believe when all is lost passion for any cause can take us over obstacles formerly impossible. Passion took me the last mile. Passion wakes us up to try to win for the 100th time. Passion molds tears into determination. And is passion that can't be scientifically measured. It's embodied in our spirit.

I pray we remain passionate about the things we love.

#RUN4Freedom

Quitting

3.11 Miles  

I quit about 3 times this morning and started walking. Each time my body began whispering the sweet whispers we know too well, "You've already done enough. Nobody's even watching." My body was absolutely correct on the second part. I couldn't agree more. Being on earth has shown me that some the most valuable accomplishments require soul searching. The mental anguish that comes with running is good practice for having the deep convo ersations that life will force us to have with the person in the mirror.

Pain is avoidable. Disappointment avoidable. Failure is avoidable. How are all 3 avoidable? Easy. I quit on my goals. Neglect the ugly conversations I need to have with myself. But, the pain, disappointment and failure from not pushing forward is much worse than if I sincerely tried. So I'm trying and quitting over and over again until something cracks the sky. Until then, I'm going appreciate this process of growing as a person. I only get one chance at it.

#RUN4Freedom  

Starting Things

2.75 Miles

Starting anything is an ugly process. The first few attempts make or break you. This isn't the first time I've started something. What I've realized to be pretty effective in starting is to have someone close who's further down the road than you at the goal you wish to be at. We can use that person as a healthy measuring stick.

At the same time we can use the objectives we've accomplished on the way to remember how far we've come. Not too many things worth it in life are easy. I'm learning to appreciate "starting things" but at the same I've realized that not too many things are ever finished. As for myself I'll never be a finished product. My current struggle to get healthier will continue until I can't run at all.

I pray you all find personal peace in working on whatever personal goal you choose.

#RUN4Freedom

Morning Run

2.75 Miles

I've come to the conclusion that for some reason my spirituality and mental stability are tied to my personal health. With that being said I've challenged myself to lose 25lbs. I believe you should be able to beat your children at any physical activity until your around 55 years old. This may not be set in stone, but it is a good measuring stick for myself. All of my accomplishments mean nothing if I'm not healthy enough to witness them blossom.

Sidebar: I suspect that my writing will dramatically increase in its power as well by taking this journey, the Universe works that way often. What are your goals for the next few months? How can we push each other?

#RUN4Freedom